retrospection

Keeping this blog is probably the best thing I have done in a long while. Its like a long term relationship. I can see myself change through the post. I will change. I will write. I will remember.

Godddammittt that was pretentious!

the hot guy ...

WTF is a hot guy. I hear my friends who are girls often say that the guy is so hot. I mean wht the fuck. I dont care if the guy is good looking etc. Maybe at some level i do, because I dont consider myself to be hot. But still the concept in todays time that a guy has to be hot is abso-fucking-ridiculous. I am pretty much an old school guy I suppose. I value courage, integrity, honesty, loyalty, romance, etc. etc. I consider these are the true qualities that make a guy. I honestly believe that I live up to these values. I am not always successful but I try. In my opinion 'hot guys' intrinsically cannot have these qualities. You know why? Precisely because they are 'hot'! They have it too easy from the beginning. Character is what you get when you dont get what you want. Well the actual phrase is 'experience is what ...' but I suppose experience builds character. And unfortunately 'hot' guys most often than not do get what they want. Now obviously this is a generalization. I mean I know lot of fugly guys who have no fucking shred of respect for girls or good looking guys who have character. The alpha male sorts. But that is a rarity. And it also depends upon your upbringing. Actually it only depends on your upbrigning as to how you perceive yourself. Most of you will think that I am being chauvinist, and ranting because i may not be 'hot'. Well fuck that. I know what I am, and I have has my share of attention from the fairer sex. But I would really like to believe that it wasnt because of the way I looked but because of the way I am. I mean wtf.
What pisses me off is that little girls nowadays think hotness is more imp than a character. It wasnt always so. Sense gratification wasnt the priority. It isnt until these girls make thousand mistakes and are broken to the core, do they realize that its the character thats what counts, and then begin to find that perfect guy who is good looking and has a brain. And as it turns out guy with character know this and therefore take care of the girls. Ofcourse its not fair, but thats how things work. This is true in every culture that affords some amount of freedom to it practitioners. But this hot guy phenomenon is fucking gay.

A midsummer nights dream

Lysander:
Ay me! for aught that I could ever read,
Could ever hear by tale or history,
The course of true love never did run smooth;
But either it was different in blood—

Hermia:
O cross! too high to be enthrall'd to low.

Lysander:
Or else misgraffèd in respect of years—

Hermia:
O spite! too old to be engag'd to young.

Lysander:
Or else it stood upon the choice of friends—

Hermia:
O hell! to choose love by another's eyes.

Oh my love how I miss you. Can't you see that it pains me. Can't you see that you love me. Can't you see that everything else is superficial. Aren't we lucky that we have the pain of true love rather than have false happiness. O love please come to me. I will be there i promise. I love you Pi.